she

I can't wait for tomorrow. I can't wait to meet her again. That's why I keep bringing back memories of the times we've had. Memories I'm willing to share.

I love it that you're always alone with her. No matter how many are trying to steal her, she's always yours.

oracolul completat

Respect cuvantul dat. This one goes to Cristi. M-am cenzurat, mult. Sa faci bine sa apreciezi.

Intrebare: Cum ma simt azi?

Kosheen – Face in a crowd (we move in silence /looking down)

Intrebare: Voi ajunge departe in viata ?

Snow Patrol – Last Ever Gunman (I do alright in my own way)

Intrebare: Cum ma vad prietenii ?

Zero 7 – Somersault (You talk to loners, you ask how's your week / You give love to all and give love to me / You're obsessed with hiding the sticks and stones / When I feel the unknown /You feel like home, you feel like home)

Intrebare: O sa ma casatoresc ? (lol)

Regina Spektor – Hotel Song (You will never be my / You will never be my fool / Will never be my fool )

Intrebare: Cum mi'as descrie cel mai bun prieten?

Conjure One – One Word (With only one word / You took the ice out of the air again / And put the heat back in the sun again / With only one word)

Intrebare: Care e povestea vietii mele ?

The Cat Empire – Protons, Neutrons, Electrons (I've had complicated dealings / With complicated feelings / And I've cut and bruised and torn. )

Intrebare: Cum a fost la liceu?

The Fray - All at once (there are certain people you just keep coming back to)

Intrebare: Cum tin pasul cu viata?

Gotan Project – Queremos Paz

Intrebare: Care e cel mai bun lucru la prietenii tăi?
Regina Spektor - Fidelity (All my friends say that of course it's gonna get better / Gonna get better / Better better better better better better better)

Intrebare: Ce fac weekendul asta ?

Modest Mouse - Dance Hall

Intrebare: Cine esti tu de fapt ?
Zero 7 – Passing by (Who am I to make a judgment of your life? / I'm only passing by, passing by)

Intrebare: Cum as descrie prostia ?

Snow Patrol – Spitting Games (I struggle for the words, and then give up)

Intrebare: Cum mi’e viata acum ?

Depeche Mode – Dream On (Paying debt to karma /You party for a living /What you take won't kill you / But careful what you're giving)

Intrebare: Ce cantec se va canta la inmormantarea mea?

Modest Mouse – This Devil’s Workday

Intrebare: Cum ma vede lumea?

Portishead – Only You

Intrebare: Ce ma face fericit ?

Telepopmusik – Smile (When I see you smile, / I can face the world, / You know I can do anything. // When I see you smile, / I see a ray of light, / I see you shining right to the way now.)

Intrebare: Ma doreste cineva in secret ?

Koop – Absolute Space

Intrebare: Cum as descrie realitatea societatii ?

The Dresden Dolls – Dirty Business

Intrebare: Cum pot sa ma fac sa fiu fericit ?

Zero 7 - In time (Take some time / Just hang around awhile / Like to sit this silent moment out / I don't want to lose or let you down / Time's just gonna change itself around)

Intrebare: Ce o sa fac cu viata mea ?
April Nine – Deepest Chill

i had a plan...

... but that was where it ended.

Might as well have written this myself. I feel trapped between what could have been and what is. I created so many alternative worlds inside this weird weird brain of mine, that I have no idea whatsoever about how i'm gonna get to enjoy what i have instead of longing after what i don't and never will have.

I was thinking about the past year. I have so few pleasant memories. And not because there weren't great moments. There were, plenty of. But I don't remember those in detail. I simply see shadows of the laughs I had and of the smiles we shared. I do remember, however, in great detail, all the tiny little sordid aspects of my most miserable moments. I remember what my first thought was when I got the news I so dreaded. I remember how it felt being all alone at night, wondering if I'd ever see you again. I remember the conversations I had with you in my mind. I remember how I told you many many times that I should have done things differently. I remember telling you i needed help. All in my head.
Then I got better. I still needed help, only you had your own life to think about. And the help I needed required too much of your attention. So I stood still, watching you smile. And kept my mouth shut.
I still need help. I still know I won't get it until i ask for it. And I still know this is not the right time.
So I stand still, watching you smile. And keep my mouth shut. 'cause i might have had a plan, but that's where our story ended.