Strongest Man

I was quite lazy (to be read busy as hell) lately, so my blog was a bit left aside. Well, I'm back, with impressions from a contest that took place in Constanta about a week ago. "Strongest Man" was its name, and it was... fun. When it was not scarry. Anyway, better than staying at home to translate stuff :D

The constestants:

The prizes:

The public:

she

I can't wait for tomorrow. I can't wait to meet her again. That's why I keep bringing back memories of the times we've had. Memories I'm willing to share.

I love it that you're always alone with her. No matter how many are trying to steal her, she's always yours.

oracolul completat

Respect cuvantul dat. This one goes to Cristi. M-am cenzurat, mult. Sa faci bine sa apreciezi.

Intrebare: Cum ma simt azi?

Kosheen – Face in a crowd (we move in silence /looking down)

Intrebare: Voi ajunge departe in viata ?

Snow Patrol – Last Ever Gunman (I do alright in my own way)

Intrebare: Cum ma vad prietenii ?

Zero 7 – Somersault (You talk to loners, you ask how's your week / You give love to all and give love to me / You're obsessed with hiding the sticks and stones / When I feel the unknown /You feel like home, you feel like home)

Intrebare: O sa ma casatoresc ? (lol)

Regina Spektor – Hotel Song (You will never be my / You will never be my fool / Will never be my fool )

Intrebare: Cum mi'as descrie cel mai bun prieten?

Conjure One – One Word (With only one word / You took the ice out of the air again / And put the heat back in the sun again / With only one word)

Intrebare: Care e povestea vietii mele ?

The Cat Empire – Protons, Neutrons, Electrons (I've had complicated dealings / With complicated feelings / And I've cut and bruised and torn. )

Intrebare: Cum a fost la liceu?

The Fray - All at once (there are certain people you just keep coming back to)

Intrebare: Cum tin pasul cu viata?

Gotan Project – Queremos Paz

Intrebare: Care e cel mai bun lucru la prietenii tăi?
Regina Spektor - Fidelity (All my friends say that of course it's gonna get better / Gonna get better / Better better better better better better better)

Intrebare: Ce fac weekendul asta ?

Modest Mouse - Dance Hall

Intrebare: Cine esti tu de fapt ?
Zero 7 – Passing by (Who am I to make a judgment of your life? / I'm only passing by, passing by)

Intrebare: Cum as descrie prostia ?

Snow Patrol – Spitting Games (I struggle for the words, and then give up)

Intrebare: Cum mi’e viata acum ?

Depeche Mode – Dream On (Paying debt to karma /You party for a living /What you take won't kill you / But careful what you're giving)

Intrebare: Ce cantec se va canta la inmormantarea mea?

Modest Mouse – This Devil’s Workday

Intrebare: Cum ma vede lumea?

Portishead – Only You

Intrebare: Ce ma face fericit ?

Telepopmusik – Smile (When I see you smile, / I can face the world, / You know I can do anything. // When I see you smile, / I see a ray of light, / I see you shining right to the way now.)

Intrebare: Ma doreste cineva in secret ?

Koop – Absolute Space

Intrebare: Cum as descrie realitatea societatii ?

The Dresden Dolls – Dirty Business

Intrebare: Cum pot sa ma fac sa fiu fericit ?

Zero 7 - In time (Take some time / Just hang around awhile / Like to sit this silent moment out / I don't want to lose or let you down / Time's just gonna change itself around)

Intrebare: Ce o sa fac cu viata mea ?
April Nine – Deepest Chill

i had a plan...

... but that was where it ended.

Might as well have written this myself. I feel trapped between what could have been and what is. I created so many alternative worlds inside this weird weird brain of mine, that I have no idea whatsoever about how i'm gonna get to enjoy what i have instead of longing after what i don't and never will have.

I was thinking about the past year. I have so few pleasant memories. And not because there weren't great moments. There were, plenty of. But I don't remember those in detail. I simply see shadows of the laughs I had and of the smiles we shared. I do remember, however, in great detail, all the tiny little sordid aspects of my most miserable moments. I remember what my first thought was when I got the news I so dreaded. I remember how it felt being all alone at night, wondering if I'd ever see you again. I remember the conversations I had with you in my mind. I remember how I told you many many times that I should have done things differently. I remember telling you i needed help. All in my head.
Then I got better. I still needed help, only you had your own life to think about. And the help I needed required too much of your attention. So I stood still, watching you smile. And kept my mouth shut.
I still need help. I still know I won't get it until i ask for it. And I still know this is not the right time.
So I stand still, watching you smile. And keep my mouth shut. 'cause i might have had a plan, but that's where our story ended.

modest joy

We are hummingbirds who like to fly
And we will not move
And thats good news for anyone
Who loves bad news

And we'll all float on ok.

the sun was king today

I missed the sun. I had no idea how much I missed it before I got a chance to sunbathe for a while. It was windy, and not quite warm... which made it perfect.
So anyway.... here's my two cents on today.

And since I'm in a springy mood...

instead of hello

Never thought I'd be a blogger. Actually, I'm still pretty unsure as to what this blog-thingie is supposed to be/do/feel whatever. I just felt I could've shared more of me (plenty of that to go), so instead of writing yet another "devious journal" I created this.
So forgive me if I won't sound too enthusiastic about it. Fact is, I'm...not. May be just a phase, so don't you dare get too emotionally involved with this piece of art - my blog.
However, you may well get emotionally involved with me. Everybody ends up doing that, so why bother fighting it?
In the meantime, I'm again stuck on details. Stuck on each grain of sand, stuck on each drop of sea. Stuck on the idea of escape.